Out in the real world

After graduation, all I could think of is what course should I be taking now that I have finished my studies. I always worry that I would just end up like a potato couch and not get to give back all the hardships or efforts that my parents gave to get me this far. As what I always hear from others, I am still young and I have a long time ahead of me to actually get my dreams into actions, so worry less. Last Monday, I kinda just dragged myself to get up and try to do important things that I should be attending to like with the SITS stuff. Arriving at school, it happened that none of my classmates were there, I text Mark and he replied that I follow him to Victoria Plaza. I decided to have my new ID picture for my resumes. Then April suddenly text that they are in a call center for an application. She was exaggeratively telling us to hurry to go there although it's barely 1pm. We decided to go there to just to give it a shot. The whole application experience was totally memorable, as it was really my first time and I was really nervous as the interviewer called my name. I'm proud to say that I was the only one who qualified for the exam and accepted to proceed for training. Knowing that it was accidental or not really planned that I apply there. The picture shows(from left) Mark, April and me, waiting in the lobby for our turn to be interviewed.

Yesterday, I get to actually experience getting your records as a grown up like NBI clearance, SSS number, tin # and all sorts that you need to comply when applying for a job. The whole NBI experience is totally hope-this-won't-happen-again thing. I was really pressured coz I just got only 1 DAY to comply all my requirements since I would be on training on Wednesday. Well, as this whole experience was happening, I have also done a lot of thinking about it. I got discouraged because my parents kinda don't want me to work in a call center plus some of the hear says that really discourages me. But I was just keep on telling myself that this is actually good, because not all can have the opportunity that I got and that this could actually be my first experience to have a job and have a good pay. Right? I promised myself that I will surely not inclined away from the field where I belong and apply for those that I have studied for 4 years in college.

Today was my first day of training, and still, having second thoughts. But I still came because I gave my word that I would be there. I was really nervous. I felt that I had to really go to the toilet because of what I feel. But to summarize my day in the training, it was fun, I met new people or friends I could say and I also got to learn new things with regards to proper grammar and proper communication skills. On the 4th day would be our 'final exam' , that's the elimination round and getting eliminated at that phase means you can't proceed to the rest of 18 days technical training. So wish me luck guys. Come what may.

Easter Sunday

I finally left house today with my cousins to watch a movie. I spend 2 amazing(?) days straight only at home this holy week because I don't have a place to go to have fun and not feel the boredom and I don't think dad would allow me to leave house knowing that it is a holy week, although my brother and sister always leave the house. All I did was watch TV, eat, sleep and think about the things that would just came to my mind and those that are actually significant to what I should with my life. After all, holy week is to have yourself a time for some reflections, right? And I totally did a lot of it. Humans are REALLY amazing, they don't run out of problems. Are we all born to face problems? I wonder if there is a planet existent but living the opposite way that we do like instead of problems, they get to experience LUCK things or fortunate things. I would totally go there myself. Watching movies, I realized that I kinda changed in doing it. Aside from focusing on the characters and the story itself, I get to look on the effects that were used, how the movie was edited, why that particular scene was taken and when someone calls an actor in the movie, is someone really calling them or are they just pretending to talk even there's no person in the other line. I watched Lara Croft Tomb Raider yesterday, and a satellite shot is taken and I think you would have to use a helicopter or something you could fly on to get that shot. And I think a helicopter was used because I could hear the wings or the propeller something (sorry, I forgot how it's called). It seems that the music should cover its sound but it kinda had a glitch or I was just talking total nonsense as I watched that movie around 1am alredy..hehe

How devastating

How come I never run out of worries?After one passes through, another one goes marching in again. I mean, CAN I GET A LIFE?Can I just get a rest after having one finished before facing another one. When I'm totally busy thinking of my problem/s, I get to think some sayings or quotes applicable to what I am actually going through. One that came up to me is, "Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone. I keep waiting for you but you never come." I wouldn't really elaborate on that but its kind of relative to what I'm experiencing. It would  be totally selfish for me to say that my life is the hardest life you could live in, knowing that there are others who suffer more than I do in this society, but that's truly how I feel and what I say would most likely be appropriate to how I feel. I totally sounded messed up right?Because I totally am. Helpless?I could say so.